This is the first of a series of secret posts I have written over the last few months. We are actually now 18 weeks pregnant, but I’d like to take you back to when we had just found out :-
This post is so secret I haven’t even typed it. It exists in a notebook, written in pencil.
You see I have something to keep secret for a little while longer, but I don’t want to forget how I feel right now.
On Sunday, 7th April 2013, we found out we are pregnant! I think that makes me 5 weeks along so far – too soon to tell anyone but not too soon to celebrate quietly on our own with a touch of anxiety thrown in…
Sadly, in the last 9 months we had the misfortune to go through two miscarriages. I haven’t blogged about this as although I wanted to, there is so much of a taboo about the subject still, and I guess an element of admitting to others that you’re trying, and failing, to get pregnant was a bit off-putting.
However, here we are and our fingers are firmly crossed that this little miracle decides to stick around.
Hang on in there little bean. Together I am sure we can make it!
Lots of love,
So, I’m not going to lie, I’ve had other things on my mind during the past couple of months that mean I have rather neglected this little blog of mine. This is a shame as Elliot has been fast developing his speech even further, and is also taking early steps in reading too – all of this will have to be blogged about soon or I shall forget (stupid Mummy brain)
Though I now have another reason to be speedily depleting my brain cells once again- we are pregnant!
Yep, Elliot’s little brother or sister will make an appearance sometime in December. Handily coinciding with Elliot’s third birthday – now that’s a present he’s not going to forget in a hurry!
At this stage I think it will be born by elective cesarean sometime around the 7th – and my midwife and consultant are all on board so we’ll just need to wait and see.
Needless to say we are all now very excited. Elliot keeps asking to “see baby, mummy?” which is rather cute.
We’ve had a rocky road to get here though, hence my nervousness about posting on here. At 14 weeks now and having been able to find the heartbeat with a Doppler at home, and having had a wonderful 12 week scan, I’m hoping we can relax and enjoy the second trimester for a while.
I have been writing a series of secret posts, addressed to the baby, which go some way to explaining our nervousness, which if I’m brave enough I’ll post on here in the next few weeks.
In the meantime, apologies for the lack of posts and hopefully now I can stay up a bit later than 8pm, I’ll be able to write a bit more often. I’ll leave you with a picture of surely the cutest big brother to be (I’m not biased at all!)